Thursday, September 13, 2012

Little Things

A few weeks ago we were in it up to our necks. I'm talking one bad day right after another. Between sickies that I was caring for, grieving, & the assortment of other troubles I felt like I had the world on my shoulders for a while. Ever feel like that? I do, probably far more often then I should because I chose to carry the burdens instead of giving them to God.

By the second day of me having to leave the learning area in tears & hide in my bedroom until I could compose myself I noticed the boys were being very quiet. Not the, naughty kind of quiet, but the reflective, has mom finally lost it totally kinda quiet. In order to pull myself back together that particular day I busied myself with a shower & scrubbing the bathroom down.

When I came out I found this picture laying on my bed. Jayden was peeking through the crack in the door to make sure I spotted it, then he grinned & ran off to play for a while. I confess, his picture made me cry more, but only for a little while.

I love his perception of God smiling down on our humble little home, all though I notice that our home looks an awful lot like the old one & not the new one. {That's another story all together though.} The fact that God is a triangle actually made me smile. In our Bible lessons each day God is always drawn as a purple triangle. Jesus is usually a purple stick figure. So it made complete sense to me that God was a smiling purple triangle.

It was Jayden, who once reminded me when I got caught up complaining, bitterly, about the winter rains that if it weren't for the rains we'd forget the promise God gave us. He was, of course referring to the rainbow, & I was, of course, quietly humbled for griping about the 30th straight day of rain.

Life is like that sometimes though, isn't it? It all comes crashing in on you & for a while you're not sure you'll make it out in one piece. It's those quiet little things that often make us stop & reflect the most. Last week was incredibly calm for us, but it's back to insanity this week, all though at least emotions seem to be better. After all, I didn't cry when I had to chat with the US Consulate General a half dozen times this week, nor did I shout at the INS lady who clearly didn't like her job.


Nancy said...

I understand, it has been like this for me most of the year. Hoping for relief soon. How sweet of your son!

Mel said...
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Mel said...

You are a lovely strong lady. I'm so sorry you have had such a hard time. It seems like the time of year for it. The picture made me teary. How BEAUTIFUL IS THAT!
It goes to show you are doing a great job.

Edwena said...

So very sweet of your ds. Still praying for you. (((HUGS)))